Friday, January 17, 2014

Weekly Update: 1-17-14

On Wednesday, I made a dentist appointment.  It sounds like no big deal.  A few cavities that need to be filled.  But secretly, I'm pertrified.  Not of the cavities, of the bill.  I've had 2 subbing jobs in January--not good coming off the holidays.  One root canal will send me over the brink.

Meanwhile, I joined an online critique group, sent a short story to Ether, and wrote a new chapter of my Coffins story.  I've been working hard to get stuff done, given the many goals I set for myself this year.  But the biggest thing preying on my mind is the money thing.  I don't care about being rich.  I just feel like, without money, my life is spinning out of control.  Like I can't take care of myself.  Ashamed.

It's something I've been struggling with a lot.  Live your dream, they say.  Find a meaningful career.  At this point, I'd settle for a stable income.  It's not that I want to give up writing.  I can't; I'm addicted to it.  I just wish that I knew all my efforts would lead to something.  The uncertainty is hardest thing.

Sorry. It's been a rough week.  Maybe I'll be in a better mood next week.


  1. :( Sorry for the bad start. I feel your pain, especially about the dentist bill, I had an appointment two weeks ago. Keep writing, you're very talented, and maybe I can help brainstorm a solution to your financial woes.

  2. Thanks for the sympathy. :) I appreciate it.

    1. Anytime. :) I added your blog to "my blog list." I'm still working on figuring out all the techie stuff, but I thought I'd let you know in case you opposed.

    2. Over the years as I struggle to write my books and stories, I've been overwhelmed at times by the insecurity and uncertainty. I understand. Like Christy says, keep writing and have faith in your work and in what you do. Hugs, d:)

    3. Thanks for the encouragement. :)